Dramatic farewell

Hello everyone,

I quit playing the game a long time ago, besides islanding a bit here and there, and I hadn't been popping out from behind the scenes much either anymore, so some of you may have no idea who I am. I joined the staff back in March 2016. I quit already once before back in November or December, but I joined back again around March again.

Now to why I made this thread. I guess I wanted to make an official goodbye, so that I don't just disappear into thin air, and also to say some other things. I've never really made a long thread before like this on here where I express my feelings, other than my staff application nearly 2 years ago, so bare with me.

A few weeks ago I decided to resign from my position in the staff after the Halloween patch, and so I resigned about 1.5 weeks ago. The reason for this is because I stopped enjoying what I was doing as a staff member. I had already lost the "passion" for a while. You may have noticed I had already stopped going in the "public" (forums, discord, in-game) for a longer time, because I was afraid of the hate getting to me. I guess it got to me either way.

I'm also doing an internship and in my last stages of finishing my bachelor, and I really wanna focus on that, and whatever else may come in the future.

To the people that I met along the way, thanks for being by my side on this journey. I hope that we remain to talk and hang for many more years. Even the ones that I don't talk to anymore, I appreciate the happy memories that you've given me.

To anyone I've hurt along the way without realising, I sincerely apologise. If you are one of those people, it really would've been nice if you shot me a private message at any point in time, as in some cases I was completely unaware of it. Most of the time I did not know that anything like that was going on until there was an outburst of hate, or when I heard from other people way later that certain people have been hating my guts. Clearly I don't realise that my words or actions sometimes land completely wrongly, so I wish there was a conversation where I was involved instead of it all being behind my back. I can honestly say that a fair amount of people that (likely) hate me, I genuinely admired before this and never wanted to harm in any way with my words or anything, so if I did then it was unintentional. Even now, I would still really appreciate it if you do send me a message, so we could talk and so I can still understand. I'm just a person like all of you, I make mistakes and I'm not the three-eyed raven so I don't know everything that goes on, especially if no one talks to me.

I might be at a lost cause trying to salvage these relationships, as I keep hearing that "they hate you so much", but I will kind off throw this out there anyway for anyone who cares at all and hopefully sees my sincerity. If you're someone that believes we can never be friends again, then please just ignore me instead of sending me hate. I think this would be the best option for the both of us. Neither of us need the negativity, it's not good.

Perhaps to people both aware and unaware of what I've been talking about here, my thoughts in this thread come off as way too dramatic. Perhaps I'm just imagining all of this way more dramatically than it really is, I don't know. I'm very unsure of everything. It took a lot for me to post this, or anything on the forum as-of-late, as I fear that I will just get completely taken the piss out of.

Thanks for reading.

Love,
Ninnie